Saturday, November 20, 2010

Is there a plan to our life ?

Is there really? - hv been reflecting lately - am I the person that I thought/dreamt/wanted to be when I was a child. When i was a kid i had my share of childhood dreams as they say - u know like grow up to become a smart & charming guy who has his way with people - just for the record: i used to be extremely shy & people phobic (there i have admitted it in public) - and now when i do a reality check i think people will agree that i am far from being a dashing/people charmer kind - so there goes dream # 1. Heres another one - I wanted to have enough money that i could generously give them away to all my near and dear ones so that they would be able to come out of their 'situation' - but to till date I havent been able to - I mean i did off n on but not in the way i had wanted to. There are many more - some were in the nature of aspiration (n not dream). Like when i was getting into engg. college i aspired to be a good technology proffessional - but somewhere down the line the plot got muddled and i found myself in a B-school - not that it was a bad thing - but it wasnt what i saw myself doing at that point of time - and the list goes on - am sure every one will have their own list

So the point is, things usually does not go the way u plan/aspire it to be - and may be thats the way it is meant to be - so may be there isnt really a plan - may be thats what its all about - uncertainty, unpredictibiltiy, not having control (but still acting that we do)- may be we should just focus on one step at a time - I guess the course of ones life will take tomorrow is shaped by the learning that ones acquires today (like in my case when i was getting into engg college i didnt know a thing abt MBA & B-Schools , during the course of it i learnt abt those and by the end of it I had decided that i would want to do an MBA) - so I guess planning/thinking too much further ahead probably does not work and hence is not required - anyways to end this going-no-where peice, heres a thought that Rashmi Bansal mentions in her book 'Connect the Dots'. She thinks that the events that happen in our life are dots that seemingly appear adhoc when they happen - but the same events will eventually make sense when you look backwards - and so to speak u will be able to connect these dots then - really ?

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Howdy!

I am updating this blog after a gap of more than 2 years. For reasons unknown I have not been inclined to write all this time. Its not that I did not try. But everytime I dropped out in the middle of a post. Anywayz, let bygones be bygones. I have felt the urge to write after a long time. So will just let it roll today...

Lot of things have happened in the past couple of years, both on proffessional and personal front. When I last updated this blog I was with mChek. Today mChek is history. No not the company. I mean my association with it. It was not a voluntary exit. But in retrospect, I guess it wasn't so bad. My stint in mChek has put me on to the product management track and has helped me learn the early ropes of PM function. I got to work with some very talented people there and the experience has definitely enriched my proffessional repertoire. Post MBA, I have always wanted to work in a Product based company (I guess my stint at motorola had got something to do with it) and with mChek I got that kick-start in my post-MBA career. So mChek, with all its foibles, will always be dear to me. Another aspect to it has been my continous association with the world of mobile applications. Post MBA, I had made a conscious decision to join TechM (over other offers like CTS, WIPRO) for the same reason. Mobile as a channel to engage consumers has always fasicnated me. Its another story though that consumers do not find it engaging enuf to adopt it and bring moolah to many of these so called mobile app vendors. More on that later.

To summarize, the last 2 years of my life has been eventful in many respect and has set the path for my future. Lets see how things unfold from here. Hope to keep the developments posted going forward.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

They say ...

Love happens
When two minds harmonize despite the odds …

Friendship happens
When you stand by each other despite not looking eye to eye …

Success happens
When you put your heart & try despite the failures …

Peace happens
When you smile unfazed despite all provocation …

Happiness happens
When you enjoy little things with laughter despite the troubles …

Forgiveness happens
When you embrace the sinner despite the sins …

Life happens
When Love, Friendship, Success, Peace, Happiness & Forgiveness happens …

State of flux !

He is singing … singing lullabies to himself … coz he wants to sleep … rid himself of the fatigue … of living … of having brought himself thus far … and now he has slumped … he doesn’t want to move … not now … not ever …

He is cursing … sometimes his stars … sometimes others … but mostly himself … it helps … cursing … temporarily … but certainly … it’s not fair … to curse … he knows … but then so is life …

He is smiling … the serene smile … as memories flashes before his eyes … of freedom … of warmth … of harmony ... of laughter … its fleeting … the smile ... but lightens him while its there …

He is crying … tears of joy … of sorrow … of blood … of love … it doesn’t come easy … tears I mean … but when it does … it oozes freely & simply … clearing in its course … some blemishes …

He is searching … for answers … to questions … known & unknown … directionless … but still searching … like an wanderlust … from here to there … and back … but it eludes him … the answers …

He is living … life … each day … each moment … lost at times … contemplating too … and alwayz wondering … Why ? … but not knowing …. How ? …

He is waiting … waiting for the time wheel to move … move and take him away … away from the present … to a time in the future ... where there is no present … none of it … just the future …

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Cupid Tale!

Here’s a short story. A sweet one too. A story --

… Of misty mornings & good morning kisses …

… Of rickshaw rides & ‘my heart will go on’ …

… Of shopping stroll & fatigue thereon …

… Of valentines shopping & candle-lit dinner …

… Of red wines & carefree dancing …

… Of mall cafes & bookstores …

… Of red roses exchanged …

… Of sweet talks & bitter fights …

… Of misunderstandings & near-breakups …

… Of revelations & coping with them …

… Of troubled times & agonized battles …

… Of resolves to see till the end …

… Of poetries & itineraries …

… Of blooming love growing every moment …

… Of promises & dreams …

… Of companionships – forever …

“They don’t make angels like her anymore”. Really.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Bleak it is .. !

Everything is the same … really everything …
Well, everything, but me …

Something has changed … something …
Yeah, things are not the same …

But what is it? … What?
What is it after all?

No, I am not fine … not at all …
Definitely, not in the way I should be …

Why this dilemma? ... This listlessness?
This ennui? ... This void? …

Yes, there is a problem. But whr does it stem from?
Social? Material? Spiritual? Or is it Emotional?

Nothing seems to be working …
Not Love … Not Passion … Not Money …

Is it a phase? Will it pass?
What if it doesn’t? Never?

Everybody else seems to be fine. Or, atleast appear to be.
So is it jus me then?. It has to be me ...

It was all working … Not perfect, but still working?
So, where did it go wrong? And when?

What should I do? Where should I look?
Who should I turn to? Who?

It’s not easy … to go on like this
To live when there seems to be no life …

Is time the only recourse, then? Time – the best healer?
Will it heal? Can it be healed?

‘Something’s missing … I don’t know how to fix it …
Something’s missing … I don’t know what it is …’

Saturday, April 05, 2008

This obsession called love !

A feeling of pleasure bundled with pain …

A sense of companionship bundled with loneliness …

A sense of madness bundled with passion …

A dash of poison that tastes so sweet …

A sense of paranoia finding expression in possessiveness …

A desire to be exclusive bundled with belongingness …

Some hard truths told behind the mask of honesty …

Some shades of grey painted in black & white …

Of questions asked .. and answered …

Some emotional baggage shed to lighten the future …

Moments of self-flagellation to save those of bitterness …

Of mistakes committed and forgiven …

Of dreams dreamt & castles built together …

A name etched in red … a face imprinted in mind forever …

A feeling that dots my moments … and runs through my veins …

A feeling I have embraced …

A feeling I enjoy …

A feeling I want to live with …

Friday, May 18, 2007

Your Personality Type

Thnx Harsha 4 putting up tht link in your blog ... its kool ... for the uninitiated folks ...the site is a cool way to find out hw rare is ur personality ... its a short & simple bi-choice questionnaire ... but the the analysis is rather bizzare n interesting ... so i suggest u tk it ... jus 4 fun ... he he ... heres the results 4 me ... followed by the link ... do try it out !!


Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.