State of flux !

He is singing … singing lullabies to himself … coz he wants to sleep … rid himself of the fatigue … of living … of having brought himself thus far … and now he has slumped … he doesn’t want to move … not now … not ever …

He is cursing … sometimes his stars … sometimes others … but mostly himself … it helps … cursing … temporarily … but certainly … it’s not fair … to curse … he knows … but then so is life …

He is smiling … the serene smile … as memories flashes before his eyes … of freedom … of warmth … of harmony ... of laughter … its fleeting … the smile ... but lightens him while its there …

He is crying … tears of joy … of sorrow … of blood … of love … it doesn’t come easy … tears I mean … but when it does … it oozes freely & simply … clearing in its course … some blemishes …

He is searching … for answers … to questions … known & unknown … directionless … but still searching … like an wanderlust … from here to there … and back … but it eludes him … the answers …

He is living … life … each day … each moment … lost at times … contemplating too … and alwayz wondering … Why ? … but not knowing …. How ? …

He is waiting … waiting for the time wheel to move … move and take him away … away from the present … to a time in the future ... where there is no present … none of it … just the future …